today was good... all my fruit, all my water, worked out. I even ignored a container full of chocolate chip cookies!
I'm so happy with how today went!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Day 3 - one habit starting to stick
So much for my grand plans yesterday. I walked passed my wall calendar and saw that I worked that night. So, no costco, no organizing my meals. But I did walk to work, to exercise got in. I also and finding it easier and easier to get the water in. 8 glasses is nothing.
Well, work to day, and hitting up gym. I read this simplified book on the metabolism. I'm gonna give this interval training thing a try, and do some weight training. And as we speak on of my coned kittens is competing for my attention against my blog, so I must go.
Cheers Everyone.
D
Well, work to day, and hitting up gym. I read this simplified book on the metabolism. I'm gonna give this interval training thing a try, and do some weight training. And as we speak on of my coned kittens is competing for my attention against my blog, so I must go.
Cheers Everyone.
D
Sunday, January 23, 2011
My 21: Day 2, Yay!
My 21: Day 2, Yay!: "So Day two was a good day. I got all my water in, I got some good toning exercise in. I got all my veggies in. Still missing out on the frui..."
Day 2, Yay!
So Day two was a good day. I got all my water in, I got some good toning exercise in. I got all my veggies in. Still missing out on the fruit, but I had a friend over for dinner and she brought dessert... so I'm glad I didn't have the fruits for the extra sugar. That's the tough thing about dieting. People who aren't. Maybe I need to reset my mind... I'm not dieting, I'm changing my lifestyle for the better.
I set another goal yesterday. March 26... I want to be 210lbs... it's nothing special, it's just a goal with a time line. I need to be this, by this date. See how well it works. Someone told me that it's like having a test, or paper due. If you don't have that due date, when to you have it done by. And it's not like I'm the type to sit there and do my paper's last min.
I have 3 early shifts next week. That's three opportunities to cross the street and hit the gym! And I'll probably head to my other gym on my days off... which will include my B-day. I see results when I go to the gym... all the time... you'd think that would motivate me to get my ass there more.
"Brik" my bf, is on his own diet. Its this "slow carb" thing... it seems to be working really well for him. Meat, veg, beans, he's happy LOL. He suggested I try it the other day. I'm kinda tempted, simply because he's dropped about 20 lbs, in something like two weeks. It's more tempting because there is a cheat day... yeah... he piled back like 7000 cals in starchy sugary goodness and booze. But the last time I went on a low carb diet I was an emotional mess. Yeah... I cried at the drop of a hat, I was moody, lashed out... It just wasn't a good thing. I'm more curious to see if this is a maintainable, consistant weight loss... and how effective the after programe is at keeping the weight off. At least what I'm trying to do is more of a maintainable lifestyle.
Costco today: yay dry goods. But I'm gonna do it. I'm just gonna grab myself two big tupper where containers, and I'm gonna put day one food in one, day two food in the second... and just pre-pack my meals. No guessing games, no did I have that already. I am just going to make it easy on myself.
Cheers Everyone Wish me luck on today!
I set another goal yesterday. March 26... I want to be 210lbs... it's nothing special, it's just a goal with a time line. I need to be this, by this date. See how well it works. Someone told me that it's like having a test, or paper due. If you don't have that due date, when to you have it done by. And it's not like I'm the type to sit there and do my paper's last min.
I have 3 early shifts next week. That's three opportunities to cross the street and hit the gym! And I'll probably head to my other gym on my days off... which will include my B-day. I see results when I go to the gym... all the time... you'd think that would motivate me to get my ass there more.
"Brik" my bf, is on his own diet. Its this "slow carb" thing... it seems to be working really well for him. Meat, veg, beans, he's happy LOL. He suggested I try it the other day. I'm kinda tempted, simply because he's dropped about 20 lbs, in something like two weeks. It's more tempting because there is a cheat day... yeah... he piled back like 7000 cals in starchy sugary goodness and booze. But the last time I went on a low carb diet I was an emotional mess. Yeah... I cried at the drop of a hat, I was moody, lashed out... It just wasn't a good thing. I'm more curious to see if this is a maintainable, consistant weight loss... and how effective the after programe is at keeping the weight off. At least what I'm trying to do is more of a maintainable lifestyle.
Costco today: yay dry goods. But I'm gonna do it. I'm just gonna grab myself two big tupper where containers, and I'm gonna put day one food in one, day two food in the second... and just pre-pack my meals. No guessing games, no did I have that already. I am just going to make it easy on myself.
Cheers Everyone Wish me luck on today!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Camera Shy doesn't cover it
I know I said pictures... But I hate pictures. I've always hated pictures. And when they had to happen you bet I read up on all the tricks to make one look slightly less fat. It's not just camera shy... it's camera; omg get it the hell away from me.
and I know that a before and after shot would probably be good for my self esteem, but I'm terrified to death that I wouldn't see the change... that It wouldn't look like change.
There's always pictures of people in their spandex underwear and such... I don't really have those, and well the beyond the fear that I won't see any change is just the fact that I'm starting to see myself as the fat girl again. Don't get me wrong, I know I'm fat, no illusions, but... when I was 310lbs it took a lot of work to not hate everything about the way I looked. And then, I started loosing weight. It was incredible. I started thinking, "hey, look, less back fat" or... "check that shit out, clavicles." I even started to think, I'm getting kinda sexy.
I even had a hilarious moment when I was at a coffee shop, and looked to my profile. I was like... holy shit has my ass always stuck out that much, and then I was like wait.. it sticks out because my back is getting flatter... THAT'S AWESOME!
But lately, I'm back to the 310lb fat girl... I've lost the ability to see the changes... and I find myself working really hard to realize that I'm missing 80lbs. I'm finding it hard to not hate everything about my body again. I'm even finding it hard to believe that I'll loose more weight. ... woot emotional confessions.
So the long and short of it is right now... No pictures.
But...
Measurements... (In inches)
Chest: 46.5
Arms: 15
Thighs: 26.5
Calf: 19
Waste: 43
Hips: 51
Congrats to me, I'm a pear shape. But that's okay, pears are delicious. We'll see what those are in 21 days.
and I know that a before and after shot would probably be good for my self esteem, but I'm terrified to death that I wouldn't see the change... that It wouldn't look like change.
There's always pictures of people in their spandex underwear and such... I don't really have those, and well the beyond the fear that I won't see any change is just the fact that I'm starting to see myself as the fat girl again. Don't get me wrong, I know I'm fat, no illusions, but... when I was 310lbs it took a lot of work to not hate everything about the way I looked. And then, I started loosing weight. It was incredible. I started thinking, "hey, look, less back fat" or... "check that shit out, clavicles." I even started to think, I'm getting kinda sexy.
I even had a hilarious moment when I was at a coffee shop, and looked to my profile. I was like... holy shit has my ass always stuck out that much, and then I was like wait.. it sticks out because my back is getting flatter... THAT'S AWESOME!
But lately, I'm back to the 310lb fat girl... I've lost the ability to see the changes... and I find myself working really hard to realize that I'm missing 80lbs. I'm finding it hard to not hate everything about my body again. I'm even finding it hard to believe that I'll loose more weight. ... woot emotional confessions.
So the long and short of it is right now... No pictures.
But...
Measurements... (In inches)
Chest: 46.5
Arms: 15
Thighs: 26.5
Calf: 19
Waste: 43
Hips: 51
Congrats to me, I'm a pear shape. But that's okay, pears are delicious. We'll see what those are in 21 days.
Day one... Sucessish
Well Day one was okay is, for getting back into it I suppose I should be happy. 5 glasses of water, a bunch of veggies... solid 4 at least, only a little fruit, but I think I did okay.
Must however do something about the goodies that are always at work. If anyone's ever been in a Blockbuster... the junk food is immense... and even if I haven't bought it... someone else has. It's a share and share alike thing. And really who can say no to a big beautiful chip staring right at you. Some how I must convince myself that veggies and dip is as tasty as chips...
I mean it's getting better though. Veggies are sneaking in. We need to just take turns buying veggie trays or something.
My cats look sad... they just got fixed... and they are coned. They have lost their kitty grace and if it wasn't so funny it would be sad. Or maybe it's the other way around. Meh, they don't hate me... even though I was the one to take them to the vet. Nope, they just spend hours trying to sleep on me. I feel guilty about moving in the middle of the night.
As for today, I'm almost done 2 glasses of water and beginning the debate, eggs and toast, or oatmeal.
Loves
D
Must however do something about the goodies that are always at work. If anyone's ever been in a Blockbuster... the junk food is immense... and even if I haven't bought it... someone else has. It's a share and share alike thing. And really who can say no to a big beautiful chip staring right at you. Some how I must convince myself that veggies and dip is as tasty as chips...
I mean it's getting better though. Veggies are sneaking in. We need to just take turns buying veggie trays or something.
My cats look sad... they just got fixed... and they are coned. They have lost their kitty grace and if it wasn't so funny it would be sad. Or maybe it's the other way around. Meh, they don't hate me... even though I was the one to take them to the vet. Nope, they just spend hours trying to sleep on me. I feel guilty about moving in the middle of the night.
As for today, I'm almost done 2 glasses of water and beginning the debate, eggs and toast, or oatmeal.
Loves
D
Friday, January 21, 2011
Welcome Back...
It's been a while. A very long while. Life happened to hit me like a ton of bricks. Firstly I went through this stint where no matter what I was putting in my mouth, I was ending up in doubled over pain. I couldn't move, I could barely keep from screaming, I was throwing up all the time... As it turns out... lactose intolerance... yeah it does that apparently. But for about a month all doctors were asking me was "are you sure you're not pregnant." I finally put it together myself and just asked to get tested. I miss yogurt. :(
The other stress... some family stuff... Mostly Family stuff. Too much family stuff... My mom over dosed on morphine. Yeah, she was addicted to morphine - but it was a prescription from a doctor, so she was thinking... hey it's okay that I'm a drug addict. Years of begging didn't work, she wouldn't stop, and it finally came to a head. She spent a week in university hospital's psyc ward. Then after a few weeks of her being home, she goes nuts again. She spent ten days bouncing from hospital to hospital, begging for drugs, and in a delusional state. It's a long a painful story... but now she's in Alberta hospital... mental health place... she's still delusional, and she's still the biggest stress in my life.
I love her, but I'm thinking I need to cut her loose. Not forever, but she's phoning and harassing me, telling me stories about the police and nurses beating her up... and she's begging for drugs... she thinks me and my boy friend of... 4 months have a baby girl... and it's just a nightmare... I need some selfish time. I need to get back to me... I need to get my life back. I was most focused when I was writing a little here and there.
So back to goals... Back to weight loss... Back to getting myself better... and back to keeping myself away from depression.
So goals... 21 days of getting healthier!
On the plus side, for those of you who were following, I started this blog at 242lbs.. Today, it's 229.5LBs... and I didn't gain a pound over christmas! Always a good thing.
So. here's the goals for the next 21 days -
8 glasses of water
Write on my blog
4-5 veggies
2-3 fruits
and of course exercise. I bout an exercise ball and I've decided I love bouncing on it... my legs hate me though.
This time I am putting up some before pics. They'll be posted soon.
And again... for all the followers... yeah I played let's get rid of cloths when I hit 230.
Day one so far...
Exercise Check
and I'm on 3rd glass of water.
When I get it, I'll end up posting my boyfriend's blog up here too... he's on this slow carb thing... he's loosing a good amount of weight too.
Cheers ALL
The other stress... some family stuff... Mostly Family stuff. Too much family stuff... My mom over dosed on morphine. Yeah, she was addicted to morphine - but it was a prescription from a doctor, so she was thinking... hey it's okay that I'm a drug addict. Years of begging didn't work, she wouldn't stop, and it finally came to a head. She spent a week in university hospital's psyc ward. Then after a few weeks of her being home, she goes nuts again. She spent ten days bouncing from hospital to hospital, begging for drugs, and in a delusional state. It's a long a painful story... but now she's in Alberta hospital... mental health place... she's still delusional, and she's still the biggest stress in my life.
I love her, but I'm thinking I need to cut her loose. Not forever, but she's phoning and harassing me, telling me stories about the police and nurses beating her up... and she's begging for drugs... she thinks me and my boy friend of... 4 months have a baby girl... and it's just a nightmare... I need some selfish time. I need to get back to me... I need to get my life back. I was most focused when I was writing a little here and there.
So back to goals... Back to weight loss... Back to getting myself better... and back to keeping myself away from depression.
So goals... 21 days of getting healthier!
On the plus side, for those of you who were following, I started this blog at 242lbs.. Today, it's 229.5LBs... and I didn't gain a pound over christmas! Always a good thing.
So. here's the goals for the next 21 days -
8 glasses of water
Write on my blog
4-5 veggies
2-3 fruits
and of course exercise. I bout an exercise ball and I've decided I love bouncing on it... my legs hate me though.
This time I am putting up some before pics. They'll be posted soon.
And again... for all the followers... yeah I played let's get rid of cloths when I hit 230.
Day one so far...
Exercise Check
and I'm on 3rd glass of water.
When I get it, I'll end up posting my boyfriend's blog up here too... he's on this slow carb thing... he's loosing a good amount of weight too.
Cheers ALL
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