Welcome Back...

It's been a while. A very long while. Life happened to hit me like a ton of bricks. Firstly I went through this stint where no matter what I was putting in my mouth, I was ending up in doubled over pain. I couldn't move, I could barely keep from screaming, I was throwing up all the time... As it turns out... lactose intolerance... yeah it does that apparently. But for about a month all doctors were asking me was "are you sure you're not pregnant." I finally put it together myself and just asked to get tested. I miss yogurt. :(

The other stress... some family stuff... Mostly Family stuff. Too much family stuff... My mom over dosed on morphine. Yeah, she was addicted to morphine - but it was a prescription from a doctor, so she was thinking... hey it's okay that I'm a drug addict. Years of begging didn't work, she wouldn't stop, and it finally came to a head. She spent a week in university hospital's psyc ward. Then after a few weeks of her being home, she goes nuts again. She spent ten days bouncing from hospital to hospital, begging for drugs, and in a delusional state. It's a long a painful story... but now she's in Alberta hospital... mental health place... she's still delusional, and she's still the biggest stress in my life.
I love her, but I'm thinking I need to cut her loose. Not forever, but she's phoning and harassing me, telling me stories about the police and nurses beating her up... and she's begging for drugs... she thinks me and my boy friend of... 4 months have a baby girl... and it's just a nightmare... I need some selfish time. I need to get back to me... I need to get my life back. I was most focused when I was writing a little here and there.

So back to goals... Back to weight loss... Back to getting myself better... and back to keeping myself away from depression.

So goals... 21 days of getting healthier!

On the plus side, for those of you who were following, I started this blog at 242lbs.. Today, it's 229.5LBs... and I didn't gain a pound over christmas! Always a good thing.

So. here's the goals for the next 21 days -

8 glasses of water
Write on my blog
4-5 veggies
2-3 fruits
and of course exercise. I bout an exercise ball and I've decided I love bouncing on it... my legs hate me though.

This time I am putting up some before pics. They'll be posted soon.
And again... for all the followers... yeah I played let's get rid of cloths when I hit 230.

Day one so far...
Exercise Check
and I'm on 3rd glass of water.

When I get it, I'll end up posting my boyfriend's blog up here too... he's on this slow carb thing... he's loosing a good amount of weight too.

Cheers ALL