Dorian brought cookies. If he had bought a bag of chocolate, or chips, I could have resisted. But no, he brought Safeway cookies. Safeway cookies are amazing. Also, I read the ingredients on Margarine; soy lectin. Whatever that is. It's an additive, exactly what I want to avoid. So, eggs will be cooked with olive oil from now on. Blah.
It's harder to do it the second time around. I can say that much. Tempted, tempted, tempted. So, today, I gave in. M&M cookie. And those bruisers are not small. And they are generous on something cause the calorie count is insane. I mean, all cookies are bad, but 270 per? I think I've made bigger meals with less calories. I did go to the gym, so, yay. I have that to be happy about. Alright, let's be honest with what I ate today.
3 scrambled eggs (240)
1/2 tbs marg (45)
2.5 cups lettuce (25)
Dressing, (home made balsamic vinaigrette) (90)
4oz chicken (147) (breast no skin)
1 cup baby carrots (30)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
M&M cookie (270)
Chocolate Chip Cookie (270)
Double chocolate chip cookie (270) (Yup... I ate three, self control out the window)
chicken leg with thigh (232) (I bought two of those rotisserie chickens so I wouldn't have to cook when I got home for a few meals, and make chicken broth when I was done with them)
2 cups snap peas (70)
Olive oil (80)
Grand total: 1794
My bmr is approx 2000
Exercise approx -200
Which still gives me a total calorie deficit of -406 calories.
So, when I do the math... I feel slightly less bad about coming in under 2000 cals, but still feel like a tool for eating the cookies. The first one was because I was starving, the second one was because I gave into my lousy emotional eating (my mom, the bat-crap crazy one, used my phone number as her contact number... I think I'm justified in changing my number), and the third, well that one I just wanted. So, yeah tool.
If you can't tell... guess what I'm doing.. that's right, food journal! Woot (dripping with sarcasm). Ah well, I'm looking at this and feeling more than slightly embarrassed about my cookie debacle, and I just felt stupid this morning for not reading the label for the marg. All in all, I fail, with an added derp moment.
Tomorrow is another day. At the gym I did a good solid interval run/walk for 30 mins, and weights. Happy about that.
If all goes as predicted, and I have no opportunity to cheat,
2 scrambled eggs (145)
Olive oil (40)
3 cups lettuce (30)
chicken breast (147)
Dressing (90)
3 pickles (9)
2 cups baby carrots (60)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
4 hard boiled eggs (312)
= 852. Now I'm thinking I may want to pick up some nuts to make up for the calorie deficit. This honestly a pain in the tuck-us. I need to worry about intake no matter what I do. Too many and of the wrong thing = fat. To few no matter what it is = starvation mode = fat. Lord. Grrr. Okay, I'll grab some peanuts on the way into work... or the way home from work... or maybe I'll just worry about it sunday. Grumbles. HELP!
Love ya'll
Dee
I asked Ross about soy lecithin (and then looked it up because he couldn't remember it's exact function). It is used as a stabilizer to prevent ingredients from separating and in margarine specifically, it helps to prevent splattering while frying with it. I realize that an additive is an additive, but still interesting to know what it does.
ReplyDeleteAlso... yikes about needing to change your phone number... I realize that excuses are bad, but a single cookie can't break your diet & it sounds like it was connected to trying to keep your sanity.