OKay, I've been bad. I haven't really been keeping up with my blog, or my water, or my vits, or... well anything really. I'm still chocolate free.
I've decided I'm an emotional eater, like so many. Food is a comfort. I know this. Sugar is damn close to a drug. The way you feel when you bite into a chocolate bar.. omg. Hmm
But that does not mean I can't control it. That does not mean I can't recognize my problem, say no and feel pretty good about myself. It comes down to a choice... have a cookie and feel bad for cheating after the momentary satisfaction of said cookie... or don't have a cookie, feel a little deprived, but realize there's a)no such thing as just one cookie and b) that I had the will power to say no. So even though I am... again... going to start on day one, I'm feeling okay about the last few days.
Like I said though, the success of my goals are completely linked to how tired/stressed/busy I am. I did a 8 day stint at work, with one day off, followed by a 6 day stint, with two, and now I'm up for yet another 7 day stint. What's a girl to do. I need to get my water bottles back in the fridge, I need to start on day one all over again. Maybe the water bottles were part of the habit and when I dropped those... I dropped the water. Don't get me wrong, I've stuck to my diet; lean proteins and veggies. Since I'm trying this 4 hour body thing I even had a cheat day. (Still no chocolate on said cheat day). So I'm pretty okay with how my diet is going. I'm just... I don't know... a little frustrated that I haven't really been sticking to my other goals... the green and white tea is not really getting stuck to. Don't get me wrong, I'm having it pretty often, I'm even enjoying this red tea from starbucks. And I'm convinced my taste buds are changing... I don't like sugar in my tea at all. It's not just I can live with out sugar and milk, it's that I actually enjoy it more with out. Go figure.
On an anoying note... my boyfriend's mom doesn't like me. Yay to that bomb dropped on my head. And it's not just that... it's that most people seem to be betting against the success of our relationship. I love him. That's all that I think should matter. March 7th is our six month... We made it past that honey moon part... we've got amazing comunication, we can actually talk about our issues... and really there arn't meany... so why do people feel the need to have an opinion about what we do, and our relationship. Sigh.
It limits the times and places for intimacy... so... blah... anyways
that's my little rant for the day...
Luv u all
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