Trigger foods...

So, I've been seeing these key words start to pop up with weightless psychology more and more. Trigger foods is one of them. Yeah yeah, I'm into A&E's Heavy and it was on there.
For a moment I almost related to the girl who was going nuts over her peanut butter. I used think okay.. chocolate... trigger food. And... yeah, If you give me a chocolate bar, I'm gonna munch... but if last friday was an indication of my chocolate habits... I don't think it's chocolate. I think... I can say no to it now... just have some.. not all in one sitting...
Peanut butter... it my ultimate trigger food. Peanut butter and peanuts. I'll be the first to admit if you gave me a jar of kraft, a knife, and some crackers, I would probably skip the crackers.
So now my question... WTF? Peanut butter? What is it about it? Hmmm...

Anyways. Again, feeling good, skipped the scale. Got in my water (4 cups in the form of herbal tea, but no caffein so I think that counts). My vits, Ohh and I hit 7894 steps today.. so yay to that. It was a little easier to stay off the scale today... but don't get me wrong... I thought about it... lord all mighty god I thought about it.
I like to know what the damage is on my cheat days... and check to see how fast I loose it. But getting on the scale 2 times a day dose me no good either. And to be fair, I didn't even think about the scale until I was walk towards the bus. I couldn't help but think about it. Wondering If Ive lost any lbs, wondering if I've gained any. You can all see why I took the batteries out right? Weight loss and getting healthy is one thing, but part of me is scared about developing OCD about it.
I must say Andrew's been really good too. We've alway texted or told each other.. ya down two lbs or, this is my weight for today... to hear a good job, or celibrate. He hasn't told me once since I told him I'm not getting on the scale for the 21 days.

I had to talk myself out of eating a chease scone today... had an emotional coffee after work. Yay I have mommy issues.. who couldn't have guessed that. It was a good coffee though... it was... but, I had to talk myself out of a scone. My room mate had given it to me, and I was saving it for friday, but forgot to eat it. Part of me was like... ohh waste. Part of me was like.. it's not going to hurt. Then the strong bitchy part of me was like.. .WTF? you are seriously considering ruining your diet for some stale bread? Sigh
I don't know where it comes from. FYI I didn't eat the scone. Had salmon and a few nuts when I got home. Hmm Salmon.
I've been thinking of going to the doctors and having my cholestoral and blood sugar levels tested. Might be nice to know where I'm at.
I think I'm gonna watch Bambie tonight. Go randome.
Need to do laundry, and clean tomorrow. It's also my six month anaversery... Love you Andrew..
yeah I'm mushy now.. deal with it.

Luv ya all
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