Hey guys,
So I've decided to do a 5K. Several reasons involved; 1. It goes to a great cause, the Children's Miracle Network so all the funds stay in Canada, and it's going to kids :). 2. It gives me a great goal to work towards, My personal goal is to raise $100. 3. It'll give me a great fitness goal.
Getting to the point I can walk 5k comfortable, or even jogging it? Yeah baby.
If anyone wants to help out my personal link is
http://www.helpmakemiracles.ca/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&eventID=500&participantID=1022
It's easy to donate on line by credit card :).
As for today, got a few errands to run, and then to the gym. I'm actually really excited to go. And I'm also thinking I'm over that energy blah. I woke up today at like 8... I've never been a morning or even close to morning person. Today, I'm up and ready to go and, I'm thinking I'm gonna try to make a healthy beef stew. We'll see what happens.
Alright everyone.
Cheers :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Day 7... I think it happened!
I think... I think I might like going to the gym. Okay here's my day. All day I was psyching myself up...gotta go to the gym... I'm gonna try the elliptical. I want to do more then walking, but with my weight my knees suck, so I've been thinking okay... elliptical. The history on this is that, until today every time I ever went on an elliptical I couldn't do it. My legs would burn, I'd be out of breath, I'd be in pain, and that was like 2 mins max. It was kind of on the embarrassing side, so I'd hit the bikes and weights and forget about it.
Today... I did 20 MINS!!! YEAH BABY. I'm so psyched! It was a pain, I felt every muscle in my legs, I wanted to pass out an die, but I just kept pushing and I could do it. 20 mins! On the evil evil machine. And Right now, thinking about it... I'm pumped to hit the gym on tuesday. I'm gonna go on a 5k before work, and after all my running around. I couldn't make the time for a decent work out fit into my day tomorrow (travel time on the bus to and from) So, I'm skipping the bus on my down town errands.
And Tuesday... GYM. And I am actually really excited to go. I'm seeing results, I'm getting support, and it feels so good again.
I had a moment the other day, kind of funny and ironic. I was walking from Wal-mart to the bus loop, a good 10ish block, and I had this heavy mother thing of kitty litter. I pause for a moment, heave it up on a bench and check out the weight. 9kilos. I couldn't help but thing, I was walking around with about three of these in January. No wonder I hated moving or walking, or anything.
So, I think I'm going to take some advice from a friend of mine. I'm gonna check out some healthy slow cooker recipes. I've got one that's older than I am, and I'm thinking my own healthy frozen dinners will be a bunch better then the over priced store ones.
I'm at the point right now, just thinking about my own personal accomplishment today. It's really motivating. And Even I can't believe how excited I am about it. Hell I'm actually thinking of getting a second pass to Spa lady, so when I do a 9-5, I can be finished at 6:30, not getting started at 6:30. I've worked some time into visiting the one across the street from my store. See if they have like a 20 visit pass or something like that. This is why I miss driving a little. :P
Have a good night everyone!
Today... I did 20 MINS!!! YEAH BABY. I'm so psyched! It was a pain, I felt every muscle in my legs, I wanted to pass out an die, but I just kept pushing and I could do it. 20 mins! On the evil evil machine. And Right now, thinking about it... I'm pumped to hit the gym on tuesday. I'm gonna go on a 5k before work, and after all my running around. I couldn't make the time for a decent work out fit into my day tomorrow (travel time on the bus to and from) So, I'm skipping the bus on my down town errands.
And Tuesday... GYM. And I am actually really excited to go. I'm seeing results, I'm getting support, and it feels so good again.
I had a moment the other day, kind of funny and ironic. I was walking from Wal-mart to the bus loop, a good 10ish block, and I had this heavy mother thing of kitty litter. I pause for a moment, heave it up on a bench and check out the weight. 9kilos. I couldn't help but thing, I was walking around with about three of these in January. No wonder I hated moving or walking, or anything.
So, I think I'm going to take some advice from a friend of mine. I'm gonna check out some healthy slow cooker recipes. I've got one that's older than I am, and I'm thinking my own healthy frozen dinners will be a bunch better then the over priced store ones.
I'm at the point right now, just thinking about my own personal accomplishment today. It's really motivating. And Even I can't believe how excited I am about it. Hell I'm actually thinking of getting a second pass to Spa lady, so when I do a 9-5, I can be finished at 6:30, not getting started at 6:30. I've worked some time into visiting the one across the street from my store. See if they have like a 20 visit pass or something like that. This is why I miss driving a little. :P
Have a good night everyone!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Day 6, fantastic news, but I might have to start over
Alright, so I've been bad. Thursday, gym didn't happen, but I did sweep and mop the up and down stairs of my friend's 4 bedroom, big house, and I went for a 2km walk.
Friday my idiot x-boss was an hour late for work, and then waddles up with a fucking slurpee in hand... gah... To make matters worse she pisses around, can't find her work shirt, won't listen to me and won't call up a CSR to help get the line up so I can change over with her and get the hell up out of there! My internal monologue went off, and I (really) accidentally uttered, "yeah cause it's not like I want to go home or anything" ... well that was a 5km walk.
And today, I discovered that I really liked walking, so I repeated the 5k. So technically no gym, but I am exercising.
About the only thing I'm 100% keeping to is the green tea and no full fat coffee. I'm trying to get used to it with almond milk. Only about 35 cals for what I drink (1/2 a cup) and it's a dairy serving. So yay. And that I've only had once or twice and still had my green tea. I'm gonna switch it up, hit up the white tea.
What I need is energy. I'm so low energy lately I just want to drop like a rock one my shift is over, and pass out. I'm sleeping, and I mean dead to the world sleeping at night. Hmmm maybe I need a multi V or something.
With all of this though... here is the fantastic new. I stepped on the scale... 244lbs! That's right 4lbs down by cutting some fat from my morning and skipping the bus a few times after work, and hitting the gym.
It's enough motavation to get me there tomorrow night, and get me to skip the bus monday.
Sad new though. I had to burry a bird today. I came home and a magpie was dead in my yard... apparently a cat got it.
I know some might think I'm crazy, but I buried it in the back yard. My aunt said I should have just tossed it in a garbage bag... but... I don't know i think it deserved a little more respect. No matter what you believe we all come from the same source, every living thing is connected. So yeah.
Meal's gonna be easier tomorrow, grabbed another couple of frozen dins. And today i grabbed a chicken. 4oz of breast meat is a lot when you actually weigh it out. yeah I got a food scale, and yes I'm making sure to practice portion control. I've been keeping it in mind all along, but now it's at the forefront of my cooking.
PS. If anyone knows where I can get flour substitutes (Vegtible flour) let me know, I'm in the mood to experiment with recipes, and maybe write a cook book.
Cheers All
Friday my idiot x-boss was an hour late for work, and then waddles up with a fucking slurpee in hand... gah... To make matters worse she pisses around, can't find her work shirt, won't listen to me and won't call up a CSR to help get the line up so I can change over with her and get the hell up out of there! My internal monologue went off, and I (really) accidentally uttered, "yeah cause it's not like I want to go home or anything" ... well that was a 5km walk.
And today, I discovered that I really liked walking, so I repeated the 5k. So technically no gym, but I am exercising.
About the only thing I'm 100% keeping to is the green tea and no full fat coffee. I'm trying to get used to it with almond milk. Only about 35 cals for what I drink (1/2 a cup) and it's a dairy serving. So yay. And that I've only had once or twice and still had my green tea. I'm gonna switch it up, hit up the white tea.
What I need is energy. I'm so low energy lately I just want to drop like a rock one my shift is over, and pass out. I'm sleeping, and I mean dead to the world sleeping at night. Hmmm maybe I need a multi V or something.
With all of this though... here is the fantastic new. I stepped on the scale... 244lbs! That's right 4lbs down by cutting some fat from my morning and skipping the bus a few times after work, and hitting the gym.
It's enough motavation to get me there tomorrow night, and get me to skip the bus monday.
Sad new though. I had to burry a bird today. I came home and a magpie was dead in my yard... apparently a cat got it.
I know some might think I'm crazy, but I buried it in the back yard. My aunt said I should have just tossed it in a garbage bag... but... I don't know i think it deserved a little more respect. No matter what you believe we all come from the same source, every living thing is connected. So yeah.
Meal's gonna be easier tomorrow, grabbed another couple of frozen dins. And today i grabbed a chicken. 4oz of breast meat is a lot when you actually weigh it out. yeah I got a food scale, and yes I'm making sure to practice portion control. I've been keeping it in mind all along, but now it's at the forefront of my cooking.
PS. If anyone knows where I can get flour substitutes (Vegtible flour) let me know, I'm in the mood to experiment with recipes, and maybe write a cook book.
Cheers All
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Two out of three ain't bad
Alright, so the gym doesn't suck as much when I go after work. So It's a good thing that for the next week and a half at least I'm doing opens. Long day though. Liking it is still a stretch. I'm going to think of it like quitting smoking. The first week is a fucking killer.
I was good at the gym, I was good with the green tea and no full fat morning coffee...
but my mom brought home sausage rolls. So.... shit fat protine and white flower. Day one on the no extra treats like that starts again tomorrow.
I was good at the gym, I was good with the green tea and no full fat morning coffee...
but my mom brought home sausage rolls. So.... shit fat protine and white flower. Day one on the no extra treats like that starts again tomorrow.
oh i hate the gym
Day two sucked. I had to go to the gym before work today. I think that's what did it. Gah.... Tired, cranky, annoyed with the bus driver who left 8 mins late... grr. I wanted carbs so badly.. chocolate... would have tasted so god damed good. But... I resisted. Barely. I wanted Ice cream, I even thought about bribing the girl I was working with. Ice cream for a ride home. But instead I asked her to remind me of my 21 goal.
I'm not a complete emotional eater. It's a stress/cranky = chocolate good. I don't eat when I'm sad, or happy or anything else. It's cranky. A friend told me about a client of hers. She got homework. "Name your emotions." When Ever She goes to the pantry she has to name her emotion driving her there. Chances are it's not hunger. So, that panging desire for chocolate was named as Cranky and I want to kill people. Oie. But... what evs. I named it. I went for a smoke on my break, I came back still tired, but I plugged through and ate carrots.
I still want Ice cream... And I need to go grocery shopping. I'm running out of nuts. I probably have about one serving of pecans left.
Hmm breakfast:
2 eggs
toast with marge
I work from 11-3... it'll be a weird shift. I'll bag up some berries, toss some yogurt in the bag... ick, I might have to eat the cherry ones. I sooo need to go shopping. And also clean out the fridge.
I've had a headach all day... I don't usually get them. I'm so thinking this is withdrawls from all the refined sugar I've been enjoying the last while. My family wants to go to red lobster on thurs. I'm eating cucumbers all day. But I can stick to my plan. I mean, I avoid the pasta, I spend a little extra time at the gym, I avoid the tasty tasty.. omg so tasty buns... or I have no carbs the rest of the day. Lordy.
I can't even think about what's in my fridge to plan out my day. There's lettus... a salad will be involved.
Over all sucess, but I wanted to fail so many times.
Cheers
I'm not a complete emotional eater. It's a stress/cranky = chocolate good. I don't eat when I'm sad, or happy or anything else. It's cranky. A friend told me about a client of hers. She got homework. "Name your emotions." When Ever She goes to the pantry she has to name her emotion driving her there. Chances are it's not hunger. So, that panging desire for chocolate was named as Cranky and I want to kill people. Oie. But... what evs. I named it. I went for a smoke on my break, I came back still tired, but I plugged through and ate carrots.
I still want Ice cream... And I need to go grocery shopping. I'm running out of nuts. I probably have about one serving of pecans left.
Hmm breakfast:
2 eggs
toast with marge
I work from 11-3... it'll be a weird shift. I'll bag up some berries, toss some yogurt in the bag... ick, I might have to eat the cherry ones. I sooo need to go shopping. And also clean out the fridge.
I've had a headach all day... I don't usually get them. I'm so thinking this is withdrawls from all the refined sugar I've been enjoying the last while. My family wants to go to red lobster on thurs. I'm eating cucumbers all day. But I can stick to my plan. I mean, I avoid the pasta, I spend a little extra time at the gym, I avoid the tasty tasty.. omg so tasty buns... or I have no carbs the rest of the day. Lordy.
I can't even think about what's in my fridge to plan out my day. There's lettus... a salad will be involved.
Over all sucess, but I wanted to fail so many times.
Cheers
Monday, July 19, 2010
One Day Down
Day one: One day down.
That's right, a few cups of green tea, a trip to the gym and no excess carbs. I'm feeling good. Might just be the post-gym happies. No one likes going to the gym but I dare people to tell me they don't feel good after.
I threw out my favorite pair of pants today though. These beautiful pin-striped trouser pants, that were long and wide in the leg and slimming and pretty. Well.. they were pretty. I tried them on the other day, I had a meeting. OMG they looked awful. Too big in the leg, too big in the belly. Three steps and they'd fall down and they hung so low off my crotch it made me look like I had a gunt to my knees. Yeah I said it.
So, because I know I'm never going back to a size 24+ I tossed them. My next habit will be try one thing on every day, see if it still fits; if it does, keep it. If it doesn't... get rid of. The scary thing is... I'll have no cloths. Thank god for thrift shops.
I did come home to a disaster... yay kittens. But if that was the worst of my day, I think I'm okay. So.... Deal with the gym bag tomorrow morning.
I ended up forgetting my runners at work. But since I was planning on hitting the hot tub after my work out, it ended up being laps in the pool rather then a few miles on the treadmill. The next challenge is planning out the meals.
Okay here goes:
Breakfast:
1/2 cub blue berries (Go fiber)
1 package oat meal
1/2 cup almond milk. I like the almond milk. It's not something I really like drinking but, in the oat meal, it's really nice, it's lightly sweetened so I don't end up wanting to add sugar subs.
Snack:
Do I have celery... If I do I'm thinking celery with some low fat laughing cow cheese. People tell me it's bad, but... the fat content is really low. Has anyone even read the labels on cheddar?
I'll have a cup of cucumber if I don't have the celery.
Lunch:
Gotta be quick. I work at five. I'm gonna say about an hour to get to work from the gym (yay transit) An hour at the gym. Half an hour to get to the gym... omg the planning. I'm leaving at around two.
Tuna on a whole wheat bagel with some baby carrots. Believe it or not, you do need some fat in your diet to function, So... I'll use a little marge and some herb and garlic cream chease... but probably less than a table spoon of each.
I'll toss a nectarine and a handful of pecans (Hmmm pecans) in the bag to eat on the way to work. And maybe a few more carrots.
Dinner
Microwaved salmon dinner thing. Those healthy steamers are actually really great, and they aren't as bad as people think. Just watch the salt, and the calories, get the lower ones, and they are a perfect portion.
I'll also toss in a couple of yougurts... Love those little 35 calorie ones. So tasty. Some snap peas... and.. I think I'm looking good.
And when I get home, If I'm hungry, there are some strawberries in the fridge, those cut up and tossed in a little yougurt or almond milk... Tasty bits.
And damit I need to charge the iPod... okay...
I wanted to add another habit of writing every day... but I think... I need to focus on my health for a bit. I want to succeed in small goals. A little success goes a long way, but so does a little failure.
So... I'm thinking that's it. See everyone tomorrow!
That's right, a few cups of green tea, a trip to the gym and no excess carbs. I'm feeling good. Might just be the post-gym happies. No one likes going to the gym but I dare people to tell me they don't feel good after.
I threw out my favorite pair of pants today though. These beautiful pin-striped trouser pants, that were long and wide in the leg and slimming and pretty. Well.. they were pretty. I tried them on the other day, I had a meeting. OMG they looked awful. Too big in the leg, too big in the belly. Three steps and they'd fall down and they hung so low off my crotch it made me look like I had a gunt to my knees. Yeah I said it.
So, because I know I'm never going back to a size 24+ I tossed them. My next habit will be try one thing on every day, see if it still fits; if it does, keep it. If it doesn't... get rid of. The scary thing is... I'll have no cloths. Thank god for thrift shops.
I did come home to a disaster... yay kittens. But if that was the worst of my day, I think I'm okay. So.... Deal with the gym bag tomorrow morning.
I ended up forgetting my runners at work. But since I was planning on hitting the hot tub after my work out, it ended up being laps in the pool rather then a few miles on the treadmill. The next challenge is planning out the meals.
Okay here goes:
Breakfast:
1/2 cub blue berries (Go fiber)
1 package oat meal
1/2 cup almond milk. I like the almond milk. It's not something I really like drinking but, in the oat meal, it's really nice, it's lightly sweetened so I don't end up wanting to add sugar subs.
Snack:
Do I have celery... If I do I'm thinking celery with some low fat laughing cow cheese. People tell me it's bad, but... the fat content is really low. Has anyone even read the labels on cheddar?
I'll have a cup of cucumber if I don't have the celery.
Lunch:
Gotta be quick. I work at five. I'm gonna say about an hour to get to work from the gym (yay transit) An hour at the gym. Half an hour to get to the gym... omg the planning. I'm leaving at around two.
Tuna on a whole wheat bagel with some baby carrots. Believe it or not, you do need some fat in your diet to function, So... I'll use a little marge and some herb and garlic cream chease... but probably less than a table spoon of each.
I'll toss a nectarine and a handful of pecans (Hmmm pecans) in the bag to eat on the way to work. And maybe a few more carrots.
Dinner
Microwaved salmon dinner thing. Those healthy steamers are actually really great, and they aren't as bad as people think. Just watch the salt, and the calories, get the lower ones, and they are a perfect portion.
I'll also toss in a couple of yougurts... Love those little 35 calorie ones. So tasty. Some snap peas... and.. I think I'm looking good.
And when I get home, If I'm hungry, there are some strawberries in the fridge, those cut up and tossed in a little yougurt or almond milk... Tasty bits.
And damit I need to charge the iPod... okay...
I wanted to add another habit of writing every day... but I think... I need to focus on my health for a bit. I want to succeed in small goals. A little success goes a long way, but so does a little failure.
So... I'm thinking that's it. See everyone tomorrow!
Day One
So, for good or bad it takes 21 days to develop a habit to carry with you for the rest of your life. I need to develop some good habits.
I'm on a weight loss journey. I started it at 308lbs... yeah... I started it in Feb of this year and I'm happy to report that I'm down to 248. I'm in a size 18, and started at a 24-26 all depending on the cut and brand. I felt great. I feel okay now. But I've been stuck at 248 for a while. About a month. I know why. So far, I've been eating healthy, I've created a diet loosely based off the Canada Food Guide. But lately I've been tanking on it. Chips, chocolate, too much coffee and... no water. I haven't gained the weight back... so yay... but I haven't lost any either. I don't feel as good. I'm bloated and have low energy, and needless to say I'm not feeling that great about myself either.
So here it is... my own sense of accountability. I know where I'm going wrong, now I need to make it right. I have my 21 day goals. Three weeks to take the first steps to turning my life back around. Some how I feel writing this down and maybe getting an audience that I'm holding myself accountable to will be what I need.
No excuses. No justifications. No whining about having a bad day and needing chocolate. None of it. Just 21 days to develop three habits and seeing where I'm at. Keeping it all in mind if I miss a day... Yay... I get to start ALL over again.
My goals:
1. At least a cup of green tea in the morning rather then coffee.
2. No chocolate, chips, excess carbs, white bread, cheese bread, or any of the other tasty things my family bring into the house.
3. Gym. This seems self explanatory for weight loss, but if we're all honest with ourselves... who really wants to go to the gym every day...
Day One:
I decided to do this after I already had my morning cup of coffee, so it'll be 22 days for the no morning coffee, but that's not to day I can't have a cup of green tea. It's brewing in the fridge as we speak. I enjoy it cold.
As for the no excess carbs, I'm okay with that so far. I've had one serving. And it was whole wheat. I've got myself on three servings of grains a day, and a whole wheat english muffing that is low in cals fits on that. That, along with scrambled eggs (No butter or milk in their making) and later on half a banana was breakfast.
Today after work, I'm going to head to the gym. I work a short shift because of a meeting and there's no reason I can't head to Gold's after. They're open 24hrs. Go for an hour, and I'm still home by about... ten or 11ish. I'm not a 9-5er obviously.
Part of this diet... a large part, is planning out the day's meals. So... that'll be what I have to do. The other challenge is working at a place where I'm surrounded by candy, chocolate, and chips. Blockbuster is fun place to work, but so bad for a dieter.
Mostly I manage to keep in mind a calorie goal of 14-1600 per day. That little bit of chocolate I'm craving is 200 cals... I could have a bloody chicken breast for that much. Hell rice cakes (and they come in a wide variety of tasty flavors) can be enjoyed for 60.
I've become an obsessive label reader too. Salt = terrible. My rule, under 5% is low, over 20% is getting put back on the shelf.
Day one. Starting. Now. August 8th is Day 21
I'm on a weight loss journey. I started it at 308lbs... yeah... I started it in Feb of this year and I'm happy to report that I'm down to 248. I'm in a size 18, and started at a 24-26 all depending on the cut and brand. I felt great. I feel okay now. But I've been stuck at 248 for a while. About a month. I know why. So far, I've been eating healthy, I've created a diet loosely based off the Canada Food Guide. But lately I've been tanking on it. Chips, chocolate, too much coffee and... no water. I haven't gained the weight back... so yay... but I haven't lost any either. I don't feel as good. I'm bloated and have low energy, and needless to say I'm not feeling that great about myself either.
So here it is... my own sense of accountability. I know where I'm going wrong, now I need to make it right. I have my 21 day goals. Three weeks to take the first steps to turning my life back around. Some how I feel writing this down and maybe getting an audience that I'm holding myself accountable to will be what I need.
No excuses. No justifications. No whining about having a bad day and needing chocolate. None of it. Just 21 days to develop three habits and seeing where I'm at. Keeping it all in mind if I miss a day... Yay... I get to start ALL over again.
My goals:
1. At least a cup of green tea in the morning rather then coffee.
2. No chocolate, chips, excess carbs, white bread, cheese bread, or any of the other tasty things my family bring into the house.
3. Gym. This seems self explanatory for weight loss, but if we're all honest with ourselves... who really wants to go to the gym every day...
Day One:
I decided to do this after I already had my morning cup of coffee, so it'll be 22 days for the no morning coffee, but that's not to day I can't have a cup of green tea. It's brewing in the fridge as we speak. I enjoy it cold.
As for the no excess carbs, I'm okay with that so far. I've had one serving. And it was whole wheat. I've got myself on three servings of grains a day, and a whole wheat english muffing that is low in cals fits on that. That, along with scrambled eggs (No butter or milk in their making) and later on half a banana was breakfast.
Today after work, I'm going to head to the gym. I work a short shift because of a meeting and there's no reason I can't head to Gold's after. They're open 24hrs. Go for an hour, and I'm still home by about... ten or 11ish. I'm not a 9-5er obviously.
Part of this diet... a large part, is planning out the day's meals. So... that'll be what I have to do. The other challenge is working at a place where I'm surrounded by candy, chocolate, and chips. Blockbuster is fun place to work, but so bad for a dieter.
Mostly I manage to keep in mind a calorie goal of 14-1600 per day. That little bit of chocolate I'm craving is 200 cals... I could have a bloody chicken breast for that much. Hell rice cakes (and they come in a wide variety of tasty flavors) can be enjoyed for 60.
I've become an obsessive label reader too. Salt = terrible. My rule, under 5% is low, over 20% is getting put back on the shelf.
Day one. Starting. Now. August 8th is Day 21
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