Hugh, look at that.. May came and went without a post. It took much longer than I wanted it to, to get out of the aforementioned funk. But, I'm out of the woods.
I've decided to yet again alter my way of thinking. I was miserable only eating protein and veg with the summer in, and things like fresh fruit available EVERYWHERE. So, I'm adding a cheat. Slow carb be damed, I'm having fruit. And So far this week I've been pretty successful. One carb/starch a day doesn't seem to hurt my weight loss. Started Friday at 215.5, and this morning it was 211.5, with a little fruit, and a mid-week cheat meal of spaghetti. I think it's reasonable. And all things considering, I'm an adult, if I wanna choose to eat like shit, I deal with the consiquences. Buy ultamatly it has to be my choice. And that's that. No diet, no book, no nothing but my own knowlege can tell me how to eat in the long run, I have to choose. And if i choose to have a light frapp from starbucks once a week, then that's what I choose.
Anyways... I figured I'd look at some measurments too... while I was at it this morning. I'm going all the way back to January here, looking at my posts, I can't find any more recent once... I think I posted one in Febuary, but, no can find.
SO January Measurements:
chest 46.5
arms 15
thi 26.5
calf 19
wast 43
hips 51
June 2nd Measure
Chest 42.5 (-4)
Arms 13.5 (-1.5)
Thighs 24.5 (-2)
Calf 18 (-1)
waste 38.75 (-4.25)
Hips 46.24 (-4.75)
So since Jan 22, ( a little over 4 months) I have lost over 17 inches.. I'm counting that as a win!
Cheers
D
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
April Showers and all that Jazz
Okay, so they say April showers bring May flowers. Well I've been through a Sh*tstorm and down pour.
April:
- Andrew dumps me (things are extremely complicated) and the emotional hailstorm therein.
- My mom pulls a ton of crap with the whole moving out thing, like wanting her stuff at all hours of the night, like not contacting us to get a time to come pick things up, like not coming to get her stuff when her and Linda had agreed, like demanding family heirlooms that were willed to me - and she would sell in a heart beat of money got tight and she couldn't afford a purse (bitter much).
- I owe money on my income tax because of issues I have never come up against before
- I'm out two grand because Linda got screwed over with her own medical insurance when she was off sick for surgery (she will pay it back, I know that it's just hurting right now).
And... well... yeah...
So all of this culminated into an attitude that left me miserable, and uncaring towards myself. I am so sick and tired of fighting, and busting myself to the bone, and working so hard for everything and still coming up short. I can't even go out and buy something as stupid as a bike that I have been itching to get for the better part of 2 years. There's always something that comes up, there's always some battle to fight. And For this month, I just stopped caring. You know what that mean? It means I gave little to no care to myself.
So here I am, cranky, tired, miserable, and 214... again.
May first is rolling around, and I am doing 21 days straight of good habits. I want to feel better, have energy again. I am going to figure out a way to make 600-900 bucks fast so I can treat myself for hard bloody work and get my bike. And yeah. (anyone need any work done? lol)
I started to plant my wants garden even before April hit. And well with all the rain I'm just hoping for some sprouts to pop.
This is whats been going on. This is why the blogs stopped for a bit. And. Well... this is me getting accountable again. Tomorrow, measurements. Weight. Day one... all over again.
Cheers
D
April:
- Andrew dumps me (things are extremely complicated) and the emotional hailstorm therein.
- My mom pulls a ton of crap with the whole moving out thing, like wanting her stuff at all hours of the night, like not contacting us to get a time to come pick things up, like not coming to get her stuff when her and Linda had agreed, like demanding family heirlooms that were willed to me - and she would sell in a heart beat of money got tight and she couldn't afford a purse (bitter much).
- I owe money on my income tax because of issues I have never come up against before
- I'm out two grand because Linda got screwed over with her own medical insurance when she was off sick for surgery (she will pay it back, I know that it's just hurting right now).
And... well... yeah...
So all of this culminated into an attitude that left me miserable, and uncaring towards myself. I am so sick and tired of fighting, and busting myself to the bone, and working so hard for everything and still coming up short. I can't even go out and buy something as stupid as a bike that I have been itching to get for the better part of 2 years. There's always something that comes up, there's always some battle to fight. And For this month, I just stopped caring. You know what that mean? It means I gave little to no care to myself.
So here I am, cranky, tired, miserable, and 214... again.
May first is rolling around, and I am doing 21 days straight of good habits. I want to feel better, have energy again. I am going to figure out a way to make 600-900 bucks fast so I can treat myself for hard bloody work and get my bike. And yeah. (anyone need any work done? lol)
I started to plant my wants garden even before April hit. And well with all the rain I'm just hoping for some sprouts to pop.
This is whats been going on. This is why the blogs stopped for a bit. And. Well... this is me getting accountable again. Tomorrow, measurements. Weight. Day one... all over again.
Cheers
D
Friday, April 15, 2011
Something I'm thinking about
So, woot, cheat day... it's not really a big deal any more. I may revamp my goals. Or start fresh on Sat. This has been a rocky week.
What did I have yesterday,
2 eggs (150)
olive oil (150)
wooster sauce (50)
3 or 4 (I cubed a a small chunk) back bacon (75)
4 oz pork tenderloin (150)
baby carrots (45)
almonds (sahale honey roasted ones) (600)
Giving me a total of about 1220. Give or take. I wanna cook a turkey today... if there's time. That way... More soup broth, lean protein for the week, and it's just easy. And Easy works for me.
It's a question of time. Seeing Andrew today. I want to go to the gym. I have an appointment to get my taxes done.
I could skip the actual work out at the gym. Walk home from the LRT, and do some ball work outs.
I could also go the gym tonight. Gold's is 24 hours.
I could do that. That might work. Cause I know I probably won't do it other wise. And I'm all happy with my progress. So... yeah.
Hmm So much for a day off. I gotta say.
I've been thinking of starting an email news letter with Diet plans, tips, time savers, recipes, that sort of thing. One of my friends out here said that she'd be into helping too. .50 cents an issue, could be rather lucrative.
"New You" in your inbox today :P
Any ways
Wish me luck everyone.
Dee
What did I have yesterday,
2 eggs (150)
olive oil (150)
wooster sauce (50)
3 or 4 (I cubed a a small chunk) back bacon (75)
4 oz pork tenderloin (150)
baby carrots (45)
almonds (sahale honey roasted ones) (600)
Giving me a total of about 1220. Give or take. I wanna cook a turkey today... if there's time. That way... More soup broth, lean protein for the week, and it's just easy. And Easy works for me.
It's a question of time. Seeing Andrew today. I want to go to the gym. I have an appointment to get my taxes done.
I could skip the actual work out at the gym. Walk home from the LRT, and do some ball work outs.
I could also go the gym tonight. Gold's is 24 hours.
I could do that. That might work. Cause I know I probably won't do it other wise. And I'm all happy with my progress. So... yeah.
Hmm So much for a day off. I gotta say.
I've been thinking of starting an email news letter with Diet plans, tips, time savers, recipes, that sort of thing. One of my friends out here said that she'd be into helping too. .50 cents an issue, could be rather lucrative.
"New You" in your inbox today :P
Any ways
Wish me luck everyone.
Dee
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Woot! 211 this morning!
Alright, so, I hit the scale out of blatant curiosity, yay pay off. 211lbs. That's 1.5 less than when I left for Vancouver, so, any weight gain has come off and then some. Yippee!
My short term goals are, 200 by May 19th, and 196 by June 8th. I know those seem pretty random... but hey... It gives me a solid date to look at.
My short term goals are, 200 by May 19th, and 196 by June 8th. I know those seem pretty random... but hey... It gives me a solid date to look at.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I kicked my workout's ass.
So, obviously feeling blah today. I had to talk myself into going to the gym... so easy to say, I'll just walk home, I'm going grocery shopping, that'll be my exercise.
SO glad I went. Kicked it's ass. Interval elliptical 28 mins... woot 300 cals burned. And, very happy, I had to go up to more weights for my bench press. Was doing 33, had to go up to 38 to be challenged. 5lbs in 3 workouts... yay! Love seeing results. And for the most part... stuck to my diet. Had 1/2 a cookie. And, aside from pickles, I didn't really get veggies in today. Hmm.. I need to re-work the tomato soup. Upon attempting to eat it today... I realized A) to sweet (i put in a little bit of brown sugar to cut the acid) and B) still too thick. I should have let the onions do their job and left it stewing for a bit I guess. But it's got a nice smokey after taste because I broiled some sun dried tomato bits and they got a little crispy (blackened). And that turned into a good accident. So... maybe after a little more experimenting this might workout. If it does I figured out a tomato soup recipe that's about 50 cals a cup. :)
Don't much feel like delving into personal stuff today. But, things are looking better.
Love you all
Dee
SO glad I went. Kicked it's ass. Interval elliptical 28 mins... woot 300 cals burned. And, very happy, I had to go up to more weights for my bench press. Was doing 33, had to go up to 38 to be challenged. 5lbs in 3 workouts... yay! Love seeing results. And for the most part... stuck to my diet. Had 1/2 a cookie. And, aside from pickles, I didn't really get veggies in today. Hmm.. I need to re-work the tomato soup. Upon attempting to eat it today... I realized A) to sweet (i put in a little bit of brown sugar to cut the acid) and B) still too thick. I should have let the onions do their job and left it stewing for a bit I guess. But it's got a nice smokey after taste because I broiled some sun dried tomato bits and they got a little crispy (blackened). And that turned into a good accident. So... maybe after a little more experimenting this might workout. If it does I figured out a tomato soup recipe that's about 50 cals a cup. :)
Don't much feel like delving into personal stuff today. But, things are looking better.
Love you all
Dee
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Almost a success...comfort food made its way in...
Dumped.. fucking dumped and as I write this down I'm angry as hell. Because he didn't want to communicate and let something I said fester and piss him off. And I'm Up and down... I really am. Sad, yes. But angry is easier to deal with.
2 hours ago...
So, After just getting dumped, I’m having a strange reaction. It’s not so much the sadness of getting dumped. I’m sad for the times we won’t have. In my mind I was making plans for the summer. For his birthday. For going to Capital Ex together. For driving to BC together. Going camping with him. Those are the saddest things, the things I’m probably going to miss the most. A strange thing, I think I want to keep him in my life. I’d like to be friends. Gaming with him is fun, watching movies is fun. But, I wanted to be that couple at the fair. I wanted so much to show him around Vancouver. I wanted him to show me his home. Part of me isn’t surprised it’s over. No one in my life who knew him liked him. But, Oh I don’t know… this happened less than 2 hours ago so maybe I’m still fresh. I think I need to prepare for the roller coaster.
Now there’s little left to do but clean up, and… Well, that’s it isn’t it. Maybe I’ll make soup tonight.
And now... 4 hours later, after I’ve made soup, so far, I’ve figured out… whenever people who love me ask me how I’m doing… that’s when I start crying… I don’t know why.
I think I can be forgiven for going into comfort food mode. Chinese for dinner courtesy of Linda
2 hours ago...
So, After just getting dumped, I’m having a strange reaction. It’s not so much the sadness of getting dumped. I’m sad for the times we won’t have. In my mind I was making plans for the summer. For his birthday. For going to Capital Ex together. For driving to BC together. Going camping with him. Those are the saddest things, the things I’m probably going to miss the most. A strange thing, I think I want to keep him in my life. I’d like to be friends. Gaming with him is fun, watching movies is fun. But, I wanted to be that couple at the fair. I wanted so much to show him around Vancouver. I wanted him to show me his home. Part of me isn’t surprised it’s over. No one in my life who knew him liked him. But, Oh I don’t know… this happened less than 2 hours ago so maybe I’m still fresh. I think I need to prepare for the roller coaster.
Now there’s little left to do but clean up, and… Well, that’s it isn’t it. Maybe I’ll make soup tonight.
And now... 4 hours later, after I’ve made soup, so far, I’ve figured out… whenever people who love me ask me how I’m doing… that’s when I start crying… I don’t know why.
I think I can be forgiven for going into comfort food mode. Chinese for dinner courtesy of Linda
Monday, April 11, 2011
At last Success!
Alright, So I am on day 2. Day one, rockin' success. Day two, again success. Although, I've decided I hate eggs without catchup. I ran out before my vaca to Van, and still haven't bothered to replace it. I'm sure if I read the ingredients some sort of soy or corn product would be in there. Thinking of making my own to be honest. I have an obscene amount of tomato paste. I'm also thinking of making some tomato soup. Hmmm, soup. The question, what to put in it. Ever read the ingredients lists on soup? Blah.
But, slow roasted onion and herb tomato soup sounds kinda good. Hmmm... If I wasn't so tired I'd be feeling the need to experiment.
But speaking of soup, made the best roasted veggie chicken soup last night. SOOO good. I'm not sure what to think of the fact that I love my cooking. I'm just gonna enjoy.
Maybe one day I'll just give up the goat and write a cook book. Hmmmmm. I should start writing this down to be fair. But I cheated a little. I bought two of those rotisserie chickens the night I came back from Van, I knew I wouldn't want to cook over the weekend considering it was, open, open, open + hell day (Worked both jobs), open again. So, I decide to strip the chicken from the bone, Linda boiled the heck out of the carcasses and the broth was great. I roasted up some veggies and used some of the chicken breast.. and wow. SO good. Hmmm soup.
Now I wanna make that tomato soup. *Looks at the clock* Maybe wed.
Any hoo, I'm able to keep my days to about 1000 ish calories, give or take. I think that's probably okay, considering I'm still gonna be throwing in a cheat day. I think I'm gonna need to pick up some butter so I can do some baking, and have decent cookies on Friday. I still love the Safeway cookies... but the ingredient list is like... 4inches long. Sigh.
Actually on the bright side, Andrew and I are going wandering on Whyte Ave tomorrow night. There's a planet organic there. Maybe I can pick up some healthy treats and ignore them until Friday.
I also have a new weight goal to obtain in the next two months (160 is my long term goal). I'm aiming for 196 in two months. At that weight I will no longer be in the obese category of the bmi! Two months. 196. That should be pretty reasonable. I'm also planning a trip to my doctor. I'd love to find out my cholesterol numbers. And a few other things.
Anyhoo
Cheers everyone!
But, slow roasted onion and herb tomato soup sounds kinda good. Hmmm... If I wasn't so tired I'd be feeling the need to experiment.
But speaking of soup, made the best roasted veggie chicken soup last night. SOOO good. I'm not sure what to think of the fact that I love my cooking. I'm just gonna enjoy.
Maybe one day I'll just give up the goat and write a cook book. Hmmmmm. I should start writing this down to be fair. But I cheated a little. I bought two of those rotisserie chickens the night I came back from Van, I knew I wouldn't want to cook over the weekend considering it was, open, open, open + hell day (Worked both jobs), open again. So, I decide to strip the chicken from the bone, Linda boiled the heck out of the carcasses and the broth was great. I roasted up some veggies and used some of the chicken breast.. and wow. SO good. Hmmm soup.
Now I wanna make that tomato soup. *Looks at the clock* Maybe wed.
Any hoo, I'm able to keep my days to about 1000 ish calories, give or take. I think that's probably okay, considering I'm still gonna be throwing in a cheat day. I think I'm gonna need to pick up some butter so I can do some baking, and have decent cookies on Friday. I still love the Safeway cookies... but the ingredient list is like... 4inches long. Sigh.
Actually on the bright side, Andrew and I are going wandering on Whyte Ave tomorrow night. There's a planet organic there. Maybe I can pick up some healthy treats and ignore them until Friday.
I also have a new weight goal to obtain in the next two months (160 is my long term goal). I'm aiming for 196 in two months. At that weight I will no longer be in the obese category of the bmi! Two months. 196. That should be pretty reasonable. I'm also planning a trip to my doctor. I'd love to find out my cholesterol numbers. And a few other things.
Anyhoo
Cheers everyone!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Garbage is a nice way of putting it
So today, it's like a hangover mixed with pms. I'm gassy, bloated, and have raging heart burn. I'm blaming the lousy cookies. I know I get like this, I do. I know when I eat excessively bad I feel like garbage. And yet, it's barely enough to motivate me to stop. Kinda sad huh? Also today, tired as all heck, and cranky too. A few issues at work and a cranky customer didn't help matters at all. And a few drunk texts gave me a wake up at 1:30 am. Couldn't fall back asleep, so, that's really not helping. I'm gonna be at work forever and a half tonight. Gar... I added some chicken and an egg to breakfast, putting me at about 1000 cals for the day, provided I eat what I brought to work for lunch... I feel like such a pile of mushy, gelatenous, bloated unhappy, I don't know that I want to eat. I always hate bloogging like this. Makes me feel like some self indulgent teenager. Blah, Blah, Blah, whine, whine, whine. I don't mean to be like this... I'm just playing the self pitty I feel like ick game. Gah. Tomorrow, happier... Promise Cheers D
Friday, April 8, 2011
Apparently day one starts tomorrow
Dorian brought cookies. If he had bought a bag of chocolate, or chips, I could have resisted. But no, he brought Safeway cookies. Safeway cookies are amazing. Also, I read the ingredients on Margarine; soy lectin. Whatever that is. It's an additive, exactly what I want to avoid. So, eggs will be cooked with olive oil from now on. Blah.
It's harder to do it the second time around. I can say that much. Tempted, tempted, tempted. So, today, I gave in. M&M cookie. And those bruisers are not small. And they are generous on something cause the calorie count is insane. I mean, all cookies are bad, but 270 per? I think I've made bigger meals with less calories. I did go to the gym, so, yay. I have that to be happy about. Alright, let's be honest with what I ate today.
3 scrambled eggs (240)
1/2 tbs marg (45)
2.5 cups lettuce (25)
Dressing, (home made balsamic vinaigrette) (90)
4oz chicken (147) (breast no skin)
1 cup baby carrots (30)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
M&M cookie (270)
Chocolate Chip Cookie (270)
Double chocolate chip cookie (270) (Yup... I ate three, self control out the window)
chicken leg with thigh (232) (I bought two of those rotisserie chickens so I wouldn't have to cook when I got home for a few meals, and make chicken broth when I was done with them)
2 cups snap peas (70)
Olive oil (80)
Grand total: 1794
My bmr is approx 2000
Exercise approx -200
Which still gives me a total calorie deficit of -406 calories.
So, when I do the math... I feel slightly less bad about coming in under 2000 cals, but still feel like a tool for eating the cookies. The first one was because I was starving, the second one was because I gave into my lousy emotional eating (my mom, the bat-crap crazy one, used my phone number as her contact number... I think I'm justified in changing my number), and the third, well that one I just wanted. So, yeah tool.
If you can't tell... guess what I'm doing.. that's right, food journal! Woot (dripping with sarcasm). Ah well, I'm looking at this and feeling more than slightly embarrassed about my cookie debacle, and I just felt stupid this morning for not reading the label for the marg. All in all, I fail, with an added derp moment.
Tomorrow is another day. At the gym I did a good solid interval run/walk for 30 mins, and weights. Happy about that.
If all goes as predicted, and I have no opportunity to cheat,
2 scrambled eggs (145)
Olive oil (40)
3 cups lettuce (30)
chicken breast (147)
Dressing (90)
3 pickles (9)
2 cups baby carrots (60)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
4 hard boiled eggs (312)
= 852. Now I'm thinking I may want to pick up some nuts to make up for the calorie deficit. This honestly a pain in the tuck-us. I need to worry about intake no matter what I do. Too many and of the wrong thing = fat. To few no matter what it is = starvation mode = fat. Lord. Grrr. Okay, I'll grab some peanuts on the way into work... or the way home from work... or maybe I'll just worry about it sunday. Grumbles. HELP!
Love ya'll
Dee
It's harder to do it the second time around. I can say that much. Tempted, tempted, tempted. So, today, I gave in. M&M cookie. And those bruisers are not small. And they are generous on something cause the calorie count is insane. I mean, all cookies are bad, but 270 per? I think I've made bigger meals with less calories. I did go to the gym, so, yay. I have that to be happy about. Alright, let's be honest with what I ate today.
3 scrambled eggs (240)
1/2 tbs marg (45)
2.5 cups lettuce (25)
Dressing, (home made balsamic vinaigrette) (90)
4oz chicken (147) (breast no skin)
1 cup baby carrots (30)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
M&M cookie (270)
Chocolate Chip Cookie (270)
Double chocolate chip cookie (270) (Yup... I ate three, self control out the window)
chicken leg with thigh (232) (I bought two of those rotisserie chickens so I wouldn't have to cook when I got home for a few meals, and make chicken broth when I was done with them)
2 cups snap peas (70)
Olive oil (80)
Grand total: 1794
My bmr is approx 2000
Exercise approx -200
Which still gives me a total calorie deficit of -406 calories.
So, when I do the math... I feel slightly less bad about coming in under 2000 cals, but still feel like a tool for eating the cookies. The first one was because I was starving, the second one was because I gave into my lousy emotional eating (my mom, the bat-crap crazy one, used my phone number as her contact number... I think I'm justified in changing my number), and the third, well that one I just wanted. So, yeah tool.
If you can't tell... guess what I'm doing.. that's right, food journal! Woot (dripping with sarcasm). Ah well, I'm looking at this and feeling more than slightly embarrassed about my cookie debacle, and I just felt stupid this morning for not reading the label for the marg. All in all, I fail, with an added derp moment.
Tomorrow is another day. At the gym I did a good solid interval run/walk for 30 mins, and weights. Happy about that.
If all goes as predicted, and I have no opportunity to cheat,
2 scrambled eggs (145)
Olive oil (40)
3 cups lettuce (30)
chicken breast (147)
Dressing (90)
3 pickles (9)
2 cups baby carrots (60)
1 cup cauliflower (25)
4 hard boiled eggs (312)
= 852. Now I'm thinking I may want to pick up some nuts to make up for the calorie deficit. This honestly a pain in the tuck-us. I need to worry about intake no matter what I do. Too many and of the wrong thing = fat. To few no matter what it is = starvation mode = fat. Lord. Grrr. Okay, I'll grab some peanuts on the way into work... or the way home from work... or maybe I'll just worry about it sunday. Grumbles. HELP!
Love ya'll
Dee
Thursday, April 7, 2011
back and rightfully scared of my scale
Hey all,
Well I'm back from my fantastic trip to Vancouver, and what a wonderful time I had, connecting with friends, family, and...food. I cheated... and how. I had the lofty goal of not being absolutely terrible on my trip. But alas, that didn't go so well. I had a few good meals. I opted for salad, veggies, and lean proteins where I could. But, there were a few extra starches here and there, some indulgences at Starbucks, soy chi lattes, and this amazing peanut butter chocolate pie. OMG worth it.
So now, I am taking a friend's advices (Steph's as usual - she's good at it) and I'm not going on the scale till next Friday. I'm going back on my protein and veggie plan hard, and I have the lofty goal of cutting soy and corn additives for the next 21 days. That pretty much eliminates 90% of what's in the grocery stores. No Kraft peanut butter for 21 days... that's for sure. It means no to a lot of things, and on my cheat days, it means fruit and home baking. I tried to do no processed foods, but then the debate became what counts as a processed food. I'd personally like to think whole wheat flour and coco (actual baker's coco) powder is not considered a processed food, but that could just be wishful thinking so I can make cookies on my cheat day. I personally think of processed foods as those "foods" with more additives in the ingredients list than real food, but Andrew argued grinding coco nibs is a process... ergo processed food. Please feel free to weigh in. I mean he's right, but, I'd personally like to be able to eat natural peanut butter and make cookies for Fridays.
So... day 1 of 21 starts tomorrow... No starting weight.. or measurements. It'll just have to be based on my last. Although I'll be on the scale next Friday... so that will be something to go on. I'm also gonna do a detox... see how that goes. I've never done one before, so we'll see how that goes.
I had a moment while reading a running mag... I've lost like 100lbs. My body must be so fecking happy. :)
Okay, so goals:
Water (I fell outta the habit) 8 glasses
No corn/soy additives.
No more grazing while making lunch/dinner. I'm bad for that.
Cheers All
D
Well I'm back from my fantastic trip to Vancouver, and what a wonderful time I had, connecting with friends, family, and...food. I cheated... and how. I had the lofty goal of not being absolutely terrible on my trip. But alas, that didn't go so well. I had a few good meals. I opted for salad, veggies, and lean proteins where I could. But, there were a few extra starches here and there, some indulgences at Starbucks, soy chi lattes, and this amazing peanut butter chocolate pie. OMG worth it.
So now, I am taking a friend's advices (Steph's as usual - she's good at it) and I'm not going on the scale till next Friday. I'm going back on my protein and veggie plan hard, and I have the lofty goal of cutting soy and corn additives for the next 21 days. That pretty much eliminates 90% of what's in the grocery stores. No Kraft peanut butter for 21 days... that's for sure. It means no to a lot of things, and on my cheat days, it means fruit and home baking. I tried to do no processed foods, but then the debate became what counts as a processed food. I'd personally like to think whole wheat flour and coco (actual baker's coco) powder is not considered a processed food, but that could just be wishful thinking so I can make cookies on my cheat day. I personally think of processed foods as those "foods" with more additives in the ingredients list than real food, but Andrew argued grinding coco nibs is a process... ergo processed food. Please feel free to weigh in. I mean he's right, but, I'd personally like to be able to eat natural peanut butter and make cookies for Fridays.
So... day 1 of 21 starts tomorrow... No starting weight.. or measurements. It'll just have to be based on my last. Although I'll be on the scale next Friday... so that will be something to go on. I'm also gonna do a detox... see how that goes. I've never done one before, so we'll see how that goes.
I had a moment while reading a running mag... I've lost like 100lbs. My body must be so fecking happy. :)
Okay, so goals:
Water (I fell outta the habit) 8 glasses
No corn/soy additives.
No more grazing while making lunch/dinner. I'm bad for that.
Cheers All
D
Friday, March 25, 2011
feeling a little better...
Okay, so my devastating lack of substantial weight loss put into perspective... thanks to an encouraging boyfriend, and a few encouraging words from a friend, and some seperation from the numbers this morning has me realizing that a) if I get on the scale in a few days once my body's back to... no periodness... I will have probably dropped more weight. I just... I wanted to be 100lbs down when I came back home to van. That being said, I'm 97.5lbs down. So fuck yeah.
I've also made another goal for the next 21 days... mostly as an experiement just to see if it can be done. I'm going try to avoid corn products. So, corn syrup, high fructos corn syrup, fructose/glucose, dextros, monotextrin, I mean the list goes on and on and on. I'm also going to look up any additive I don't know. Sugar is hiding everywhere. Although... thinking about this... this goal starts April 8th... after my trip... quite frankly I want to be aware of what I'm eating... but I also want to enjoy myself.
I'm sure this will result in some weight loss, but it's not so much a weightloss goal as it is an experiment to see if it can be done... so much of our foods have some processing element involved in them. It's an experiment to what it actually is possible to eat, if one is trying to avoid it. I'm well aware things like pop are out, I don't really drink it anywyas. But, any one ever look at lables of butter, or margerine, or honey? Ever look at bread lables, beyond the wholeweat bit? Or even something as seemingly benign as worshtershire sauce, or even mustard (both of which are allowed on most diets.
anyways, feeling better now...
love you all
Dee
I've also made another goal for the next 21 days... mostly as an experiement just to see if it can be done. I'm going try to avoid corn products. So, corn syrup, high fructos corn syrup, fructose/glucose, dextros, monotextrin, I mean the list goes on and on and on. I'm also going to look up any additive I don't know. Sugar is hiding everywhere. Although... thinking about this... this goal starts April 8th... after my trip... quite frankly I want to be aware of what I'm eating... but I also want to enjoy myself.
I'm sure this will result in some weight loss, but it's not so much a weightloss goal as it is an experiment to see if it can be done... so much of our foods have some processing element involved in them. It's an experiment to what it actually is possible to eat, if one is trying to avoid it. I'm well aware things like pop are out, I don't really drink it anywyas. But, any one ever look at lables of butter, or margerine, or honey? Ever look at bread lables, beyond the wholeweat bit? Or even something as seemingly benign as worshtershire sauce, or even mustard (both of which are allowed on most diets.
anyways, feeling better now...
love you all
Dee
Alright, so... with my period.. yes I'm sharing because I'm tempted to believe that I've lost more weight than the scale is saying.. I'm 213lbs even. I want to believe that's more because that's only 4.5lbs gone in 21 days.
March 4:
Chest 44.5 (-1)
Arms 14 (-.25)
Thigh 26 (no change... grrr)
Calf 18 (no change... grrr)
Wast 39 (-2)
Hips 47 (-2)
Today Measurements
Chest 44 (-.5)
waste 38.25 (-.75)
hips 46 (-1)
thighs 25 (-1)
calf 17.25 (-.75)
arm 14 (-.25)
So... down 4.25 inches... and... at least 4.5 lbs okay, I know it's a loss, but I'm so not happy. And while.. okay, it's probably not the best thing to be jumping on the scale 2 times a day... not jumping on the scale once a day, just made me afraid to go on it today. So where's the happy medium. And fears justified.
screw it... going one ... in the morning... as I want... no more than once a day...
also... no diet goals this 21... I've been a little bummed out the last little while... over tired and counting down my days till vaca... (i fly out in 5 btw)... so... my goals for this 21 stretch are to do something kind for myself every day.
I read a book... "when you eat at the refrigerator pull up a chair" I recommend it to anyone who has feeling fat days. I am doing one thing out of her book every day. Maybe it will help recharge me.
grr
love you all
D
March 4:
Chest 44.5 (-1)
Arms 14 (-.25)
Thigh 26 (no change... grrr)
Calf 18 (no change... grrr)
Wast 39 (-2)
Hips 47 (-2)
Today Measurements
Chest 44 (-.5)
waste 38.25 (-.75)
hips 46 (-1)
thighs 25 (-1)
calf 17.25 (-.75)
arm 14 (-.25)
So... down 4.25 inches... and... at least 4.5 lbs okay, I know it's a loss, but I'm so not happy. And while.. okay, it's probably not the best thing to be jumping on the scale 2 times a day... not jumping on the scale once a day, just made me afraid to go on it today. So where's the happy medium. And fears justified.
screw it... going one ... in the morning... as I want... no more than once a day...
also... no diet goals this 21... I've been a little bummed out the last little while... over tired and counting down my days till vaca... (i fly out in 5 btw)... so... my goals for this 21 stretch are to do something kind for myself every day.
I read a book... "when you eat at the refrigerator pull up a chair" I recommend it to anyone who has feeling fat days. I am doing one thing out of her book every day. Maybe it will help recharge me.
grr
love you all
D
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Feeling a little down the last couple of days
I don't know what it is really, but I've felt a little down the last couple of days. I wrote a list of all the things I want to fix in my life and it feels almost overwhelming... to be honest.
But I think I'm going to star with feeling inspired to do one kind thing for myself every day. But even that seems monumental because it takes time, and my biggest challenge is lack of time. But maybe the little time to be kind to myself will help me get motivated again. We'll see.
Cheers all
D
But I think I'm going to star with feeling inspired to do one kind thing for myself every day. But even that seems monumental because it takes time, and my biggest challenge is lack of time. But maybe the little time to be kind to myself will help me get motivated again. We'll see.
Cheers all
D
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Good news... and .. Well I cheated too
So the good news.... I'm really not the big fan of chocolate anymore. Friday, cheat day, bought a little pack of minnie eggs, cause my god, walking into my store they've been driving me nuts. But... when I actually ate a few... too sweet, didn't even finish the little pack, my co-worker did. I was just in... take'em or leave'em mode. I've NEVER been like that with chocolate. I was a food hider when it came to chocolate. It's a bit of a shock... I gotta say.
And... Saturday, the day that wasn't my cheat day, was a shitty day. No energy, just blah feeling, and I got insulted by a customer (Wind customer accused me of being raciest and insulted my weight). So... I did it, I had a peanut butter cup (cause despite not being a huge chocoholic anymore, I still love pb) and 3 croissants. I gave into my emotional eating habit, and yesterday I was all like... I know what I'm doing, I know why I'm doing... and I'm not gonna feel bad about it. I didn't yesterday. Seeing it written down now I kinda do. On the one hand, I havn't given into my emotional eating habit in well over a month, prior. And I didn't delude myself in it. But, I could have just said no and done up some veggies in garlic and cheated with some butter. So... take it as you will, Saturday, I actually off scheduled cheated.
Today is a new day though. Bloody time change though, I swear I'm moving to Sask... wait... no... never mind that. But really this whole daylight savings time thing is just stupid. So, tired as crap, even forgot my ready to go tea on the counter this morning. I got through the day, no cravings to cheat. Bought a white tea from the Bux at Rexall, and went to Kingsways after work, and ignored a cinnabon... hmm the smell. Anyways. Today is a good day, for diets anyways.
I've also discovered my new favorite store. Teaopia. If anyone wants to get me a presant... gift cards. My god, I'm drinking so much tea lately it's hippie like. ... Or... I don't know do hippies drink tea? Its my new go to drink, and it's getting to be about three cups a day. And it's not all caffinated green or white tea, I found this wonderful herbal tea... hmm blackberry vanilla. Anyways, Teaopia has a ton of tea toys I'm saving for... I've decided, and I'm gonna try this Yerba mate stuff... supposed to be even more packed with everything good for than green tea.
Anyways
Salmon for dinner with some roated veg
don't have to get up early for work.
Life is pretty good.
Luv ya
D
And... Saturday, the day that wasn't my cheat day, was a shitty day. No energy, just blah feeling, and I got insulted by a customer (Wind customer accused me of being raciest and insulted my weight). So... I did it, I had a peanut butter cup (cause despite not being a huge chocoholic anymore, I still love pb) and 3 croissants. I gave into my emotional eating habit, and yesterday I was all like... I know what I'm doing, I know why I'm doing... and I'm not gonna feel bad about it. I didn't yesterday. Seeing it written down now I kinda do. On the one hand, I havn't given into my emotional eating habit in well over a month, prior. And I didn't delude myself in it. But, I could have just said no and done up some veggies in garlic and cheated with some butter. So... take it as you will, Saturday, I actually off scheduled cheated.
Today is a new day though. Bloody time change though, I swear I'm moving to Sask... wait... no... never mind that. But really this whole daylight savings time thing is just stupid. So, tired as crap, even forgot my ready to go tea on the counter this morning. I got through the day, no cravings to cheat. Bought a white tea from the Bux at Rexall, and went to Kingsways after work, and ignored a cinnabon... hmm the smell. Anyways. Today is a good day, for diets anyways.
I've also discovered my new favorite store. Teaopia. If anyone wants to get me a presant... gift cards. My god, I'm drinking so much tea lately it's hippie like. ... Or... I don't know do hippies drink tea? Its my new go to drink, and it's getting to be about three cups a day. And it's not all caffinated green or white tea, I found this wonderful herbal tea... hmm blackberry vanilla. Anyways, Teaopia has a ton of tea toys I'm saving for... I've decided, and I'm gonna try this Yerba mate stuff... supposed to be even more packed with everything good for than green tea.
Anyways
Salmon for dinner with some roated veg
don't have to get up early for work.
Life is pretty good.
Luv ya
D
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Some habits...
Alright, so water check.. walked about 8000 steps yesterday... my ped got rest at one point... and who knows how often that happened... ANYWAYS. That's not the challenge...
All I want to do today is step on the scale. It's been almost a full week. I practically feel itchy for it. Sigh, some habits are harder to break than other's I guess. Sigh. Part of me wants to just say f it... but what if the numbers havn't gone down, then I'll just be sad, and stressed.... lordy.
So.. no, battary stays out till the 25th... that's only 16 days... I can go 16 more days...
I can...
Luv u
D
All I want to do today is step on the scale. It's been almost a full week. I practically feel itchy for it. Sigh, some habits are harder to break than other's I guess. Sigh. Part of me wants to just say f it... but what if the numbers havn't gone down, then I'll just be sad, and stressed.... lordy.
So.. no, battary stays out till the 25th... that's only 16 days... I can go 16 more days...
I can...
Luv u
D
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Trigger foods...
So, I've been seeing these key words start to pop up with weightless psychology more and more. Trigger foods is one of them. Yeah yeah, I'm into A&E's Heavy and it was on there.
For a moment I almost related to the girl who was going nuts over her peanut butter. I used think okay.. chocolate... trigger food. And... yeah, If you give me a chocolate bar, I'm gonna munch... but if last friday was an indication of my chocolate habits... I don't think it's chocolate. I think... I can say no to it now... just have some.. not all in one sitting...
Peanut butter... it my ultimate trigger food. Peanut butter and peanuts. I'll be the first to admit if you gave me a jar of kraft, a knife, and some crackers, I would probably skip the crackers.
So now my question... WTF? Peanut butter? What is it about it? Hmmm...
Anyways. Again, feeling good, skipped the scale. Got in my water (4 cups in the form of herbal tea, but no caffein so I think that counts). My vits, Ohh and I hit 7894 steps today.. so yay to that. It was a little easier to stay off the scale today... but don't get me wrong... I thought about it... lord all mighty god I thought about it.
I like to know what the damage is on my cheat days... and check to see how fast I loose it. But getting on the scale 2 times a day dose me no good either. And to be fair, I didn't even think about the scale until I was walk towards the bus. I couldn't help but think about it. Wondering If Ive lost any lbs, wondering if I've gained any. You can all see why I took the batteries out right? Weight loss and getting healthy is one thing, but part of me is scared about developing OCD about it.
I must say Andrew's been really good too. We've alway texted or told each other.. ya down two lbs or, this is my weight for today... to hear a good job, or celibrate. He hasn't told me once since I told him I'm not getting on the scale for the 21 days.
I had to talk myself out of eating a chease scone today... had an emotional coffee after work. Yay I have mommy issues.. who couldn't have guessed that. It was a good coffee though... it was... but, I had to talk myself out of a scone. My room mate had given it to me, and I was saving it for friday, but forgot to eat it. Part of me was like... ohh waste. Part of me was like.. it's not going to hurt. Then the strong bitchy part of me was like.. .WTF? you are seriously considering ruining your diet for some stale bread? Sigh
I don't know where it comes from. FYI I didn't eat the scone. Had salmon and a few nuts when I got home. Hmm Salmon.
I've been thinking of going to the doctors and having my cholestoral and blood sugar levels tested. Might be nice to know where I'm at.
I think I'm gonna watch Bambie tonight. Go randome.
Need to do laundry, and clean tomorrow. It's also my six month anaversery... Love you Andrew..
yeah I'm mushy now.. deal with it.
Luv ya all
D
For a moment I almost related to the girl who was going nuts over her peanut butter. I used think okay.. chocolate... trigger food. And... yeah, If you give me a chocolate bar, I'm gonna munch... but if last friday was an indication of my chocolate habits... I don't think it's chocolate. I think... I can say no to it now... just have some.. not all in one sitting...
Peanut butter... it my ultimate trigger food. Peanut butter and peanuts. I'll be the first to admit if you gave me a jar of kraft, a knife, and some crackers, I would probably skip the crackers.
So now my question... WTF? Peanut butter? What is it about it? Hmmm...
Anyways. Again, feeling good, skipped the scale. Got in my water (4 cups in the form of herbal tea, but no caffein so I think that counts). My vits, Ohh and I hit 7894 steps today.. so yay to that. It was a little easier to stay off the scale today... but don't get me wrong... I thought about it... lord all mighty god I thought about it.
I like to know what the damage is on my cheat days... and check to see how fast I loose it. But getting on the scale 2 times a day dose me no good either. And to be fair, I didn't even think about the scale until I was walk towards the bus. I couldn't help but think about it. Wondering If Ive lost any lbs, wondering if I've gained any. You can all see why I took the batteries out right? Weight loss and getting healthy is one thing, but part of me is scared about developing OCD about it.
I must say Andrew's been really good too. We've alway texted or told each other.. ya down two lbs or, this is my weight for today... to hear a good job, or celibrate. He hasn't told me once since I told him I'm not getting on the scale for the 21 days.
I had to talk myself out of eating a chease scone today... had an emotional coffee after work. Yay I have mommy issues.. who couldn't have guessed that. It was a good coffee though... it was... but, I had to talk myself out of a scone. My room mate had given it to me, and I was saving it for friday, but forgot to eat it. Part of me was like... ohh waste. Part of me was like.. it's not going to hurt. Then the strong bitchy part of me was like.. .WTF? you are seriously considering ruining your diet for some stale bread? Sigh
I don't know where it comes from. FYI I didn't eat the scone. Had salmon and a few nuts when I got home. Hmm Salmon.
I've been thinking of going to the doctors and having my cholestoral and blood sugar levels tested. Might be nice to know where I'm at.
I think I'm gonna watch Bambie tonight. Go randome.
Need to do laundry, and clean tomorrow. It's also my six month anaversery... Love you Andrew..
yeah I'm mushy now.. deal with it.
Luv ya all
D
Saturday, March 5, 2011
quick rant before bed
So, out of curiosity I decided to look up food addiction. I already know I'm an emotional eater, and I'm braking that cycle. I was curious about the addiction bit. I can admit I was there. I used to hide food... food I know were embarrassing to be caught eating. I used to binge eat, I would try to purge though various ways... I used to do a lot of things on the addiction list. But... I don't know, since I've make the choices, since I've stood here and said, No... I can do this... I don't. I said no to chocolate for 21 days strait. For more than the last three months, I've said... no I'm not letting this shitty emotional situation ruin my damn diet. Do I need to constantly work at it? You bet your ass I do... But I did it.
So when I read "The physiological and psychological dependency of food can be broken when the individual recognizes that they are powerless to combat it alone" I nearly shit bricks.... okay the rest of this goes on about how God helps the helpless and all that... and people who have that leval of faith... well it's a beautiful thing. But don't you dare tell me I am powerless to change MY life. I was honestly thinking... and have been for a bit... since my mom went loopy because of her own addiction and I went to an alanon family thing, that Maybe... MAYBE, I should look into this food addiction thing... maybe talking would help.. If I'm going to sit there and be told that I... I Am POWERLESS? Kiss My Shrinking Ass. And what a terrible message to tell to people... You are powerless to fight your addiction on your own? Why not be EMpowered by God's love to fight this? Maybe some people need it. I don't want to judge the people getting help with their addiction. I'm critizising the people running these groups... No wonder people have the idea that they've tried everything and fail... if the message is you are powerless to change on your own... well... fine then...
... this...
Ga..
Alright.. ranting makes me sleepy...
powerless my shrinking ass...
Love you
D
So when I read "The physiological and psychological dependency of food can be broken when the individual recognizes that they are powerless to combat it alone" I nearly shit bricks.... okay the rest of this goes on about how God helps the helpless and all that... and people who have that leval of faith... well it's a beautiful thing. But don't you dare tell me I am powerless to change MY life. I was honestly thinking... and have been for a bit... since my mom went loopy because of her own addiction and I went to an alanon family thing, that Maybe... MAYBE, I should look into this food addiction thing... maybe talking would help.. If I'm going to sit there and be told that I... I Am POWERLESS? Kiss My Shrinking Ass. And what a terrible message to tell to people... You are powerless to fight your addiction on your own? Why not be EMpowered by God's love to fight this? Maybe some people need it. I don't want to judge the people getting help with their addiction. I'm critizising the people running these groups... No wonder people have the idea that they've tried everything and fail... if the message is you are powerless to change on your own... well... fine then...
... this...
Ga..
Alright.. ranting makes me sleepy...
powerless my shrinking ass...
Love you
D
TGFCH
So, Fridays are my designated cheat days. I know it sounds off to have a cheat day, but there are some very good reasons for it.
1) If you do reduce your caloric intake, your body will become accustom to that new intake and run efficiently on it, rather than continue to burn fat to make up the difference. You mess with your body a little, give it some extra calories once in a while and it can't become use to what you put in.
2) Everyone cheats on their diets, rather then go through the guilt or justification, just schedule it.
3) Since I am doing a slow carb/low carb diet, it's important to get the carbohydrates in at least once a week so I don't go fucking crazy.
Thank God it was my cheat day yesterday... what a mess at work, tech support, theft, mess... blah.
Anyways. Yesterday I took the batteries out of my scale. I am determined to break that addiction/habit of getting on it at least once a day. Yeah I was great seeing the numbers go down kinda consistently, but feeling like shit because they didn't, or heaven forbid went up 1/2 a lb... my god.
I woke up this morning and fought with myself about putting the batteries back in... "out of curiosity" lordy.
The other thing... I had chocolate yesterday.... I don't feel bad, I made it 21 days with out. I was all happy with myself. It was too sweet... I... I... me a self professed chocoholic... didn't like really like it. I mean I've always had a preference for dark chocolate, but... to out right not like it...
Guys... what's happening to me...
Luv ya
D
1) If you do reduce your caloric intake, your body will become accustom to that new intake and run efficiently on it, rather than continue to burn fat to make up the difference. You mess with your body a little, give it some extra calories once in a while and it can't become use to what you put in.
2) Everyone cheats on their diets, rather then go through the guilt or justification, just schedule it.
3) Since I am doing a slow carb/low carb diet, it's important to get the carbohydrates in at least once a week so I don't go fucking crazy.
Thank God it was my cheat day yesterday... what a mess at work, tech support, theft, mess... blah.
Anyways. Yesterday I took the batteries out of my scale. I am determined to break that addiction/habit of getting on it at least once a day. Yeah I was great seeing the numbers go down kinda consistently, but feeling like shit because they didn't, or heaven forbid went up 1/2 a lb... my god.
I woke up this morning and fought with myself about putting the batteries back in... "out of curiosity" lordy.
The other thing... I had chocolate yesterday.... I don't feel bad, I made it 21 days with out. I was all happy with myself. It was too sweet... I... I... me a self professed chocoholic... didn't like really like it. I mean I've always had a preference for dark chocolate, but... to out right not like it...
Guys... what's happening to me...
Luv ya
D
Friday, March 4, 2011
Day 21! DOWN!
Hey Ladies and gents,
okay, so, I'm bad with keeping up with my blog. I'm bad at not going on the scale, and I'm pretty damn happy about my results this time.
Feb 10 Measurements:
Chest 45.5
Arms 14.25
Thigh 26
Calf 18
Waste 41
hips 49
Today's Measurements:
Chest 44.5 (-1)
Arms 14 (-.25)
Thigh 26 (no change... grrr)
Calf 18 (no change... grrr)
Wast 39 (-2)
Hips 47 (-2)
Total loss in 21 days, 5.25 inches :D Yay! And the scale this morning... 217! WOOOOT I'm down 11.5lbs in 3 weeks. Yay. And what a three week bit its been. My god, in the last three weeks I think I've had a total of 3 days off. I've been running around trying to plan a trip to Vancouver, get in touch with friends and just in general figure shit out. I was getting bad at my goals. I mean I wasn't keep track of water, I wasn't really drinking tea, I wasn't blogging, and I was so tired because my shift were all over the place I wasn't going to the gym... just trying to keep busy so I was moving. I was going on the scale nearly every day. The worst part about that was how upset I was getting when I was going up and down.
I'm taking the battery out of my scale today. I'm not going on again for another 21 days.
And I'm restarting goals today too.
Just three
1. 8 glasses of water and a cup of tea
2. still keeping all the veg, but I want to get one serving of cooked veg
3. use my pedometer and get up to 10,000 steps a day by the end of 21 days. I'm at around 8,000 on a block buster day, 5000 on a rexall day. (I work in a tiny room, so not a lot of walking at rex).
Okay... 4... Do not step on a scale, and to not STRESS about the number. Stress is a killer, I don't need another thing to stress about. If I'm doing healthy things for my body, I shouldn't worry about it. The results will come.
I think those will be managable. I won't get upset with failing because I'm trying to do too much, inbetween keeping up with work, an attempt at a personal life, and any issues coming up. These can just become a part of my regular day.
But somethings I am happy about... 21 days with out chocolate, dispite working at Blockbuster where every time I walk in, I can smell the mini eggs.
I am completely off sugar (sub or otherwise) or creame in my white, green, and herbal teas... I perfer just the flavor of the tea, no additives.
And of course :D 11.5 lbs and 5.25 inches. YAY
So, let's see what the next 21 brings. Next day March 25th... then my trip :D
Luv you guys
D
okay, so, I'm bad with keeping up with my blog. I'm bad at not going on the scale, and I'm pretty damn happy about my results this time.
Feb 10 Measurements:
Chest 45.5
Arms 14.25
Thigh 26
Calf 18
Waste 41
hips 49
Today's Measurements:
Chest 44.5 (-1)
Arms 14 (-.25)
Thigh 26 (no change... grrr)
Calf 18 (no change... grrr)
Wast 39 (-2)
Hips 47 (-2)
Total loss in 21 days, 5.25 inches :D Yay! And the scale this morning... 217! WOOOOT I'm down 11.5lbs in 3 weeks. Yay. And what a three week bit its been. My god, in the last three weeks I think I've had a total of 3 days off. I've been running around trying to plan a trip to Vancouver, get in touch with friends and just in general figure shit out. I was getting bad at my goals. I mean I wasn't keep track of water, I wasn't really drinking tea, I wasn't blogging, and I was so tired because my shift were all over the place I wasn't going to the gym... just trying to keep busy so I was moving. I was going on the scale nearly every day. The worst part about that was how upset I was getting when I was going up and down.
I'm taking the battery out of my scale today. I'm not going on again for another 21 days.
And I'm restarting goals today too.
Just three
1. 8 glasses of water and a cup of tea
2. still keeping all the veg, but I want to get one serving of cooked veg
3. use my pedometer and get up to 10,000 steps a day by the end of 21 days. I'm at around 8,000 on a block buster day, 5000 on a rexall day. (I work in a tiny room, so not a lot of walking at rex).
Okay... 4... Do not step on a scale, and to not STRESS about the number. Stress is a killer, I don't need another thing to stress about. If I'm doing healthy things for my body, I shouldn't worry about it. The results will come.
I think those will be managable. I won't get upset with failing because I'm trying to do too much, inbetween keeping up with work, an attempt at a personal life, and any issues coming up. These can just become a part of my regular day.
But somethings I am happy about... 21 days with out chocolate, dispite working at Blockbuster where every time I walk in, I can smell the mini eggs.
I am completely off sugar (sub or otherwise) or creame in my white, green, and herbal teas... I perfer just the flavor of the tea, no additives.
And of course :D 11.5 lbs and 5.25 inches. YAY
So, let's see what the next 21 brings. Next day March 25th... then my trip :D
Luv you guys
D
Monday, February 28, 2011
time to make a plan
OKay, I've been bad. I haven't really been keeping up with my blog, or my water, or my vits, or... well anything really. I'm still chocolate free.
I've decided I'm an emotional eater, like so many. Food is a comfort. I know this. Sugar is damn close to a drug. The way you feel when you bite into a chocolate bar.. omg. Hmm
But that does not mean I can't control it. That does not mean I can't recognize my problem, say no and feel pretty good about myself. It comes down to a choice... have a cookie and feel bad for cheating after the momentary satisfaction of said cookie... or don't have a cookie, feel a little deprived, but realize there's a)no such thing as just one cookie and b) that I had the will power to say no. So even though I am... again... going to start on day one, I'm feeling okay about the last few days.
Like I said though, the success of my goals are completely linked to how tired/stressed/busy I am. I did a 8 day stint at work, with one day off, followed by a 6 day stint, with two, and now I'm up for yet another 7 day stint. What's a girl to do. I need to get my water bottles back in the fridge, I need to start on day one all over again. Maybe the water bottles were part of the habit and when I dropped those... I dropped the water. Don't get me wrong, I've stuck to my diet; lean proteins and veggies. Since I'm trying this 4 hour body thing I even had a cheat day. (Still no chocolate on said cheat day). So I'm pretty okay with how my diet is going. I'm just... I don't know... a little frustrated that I haven't really been sticking to my other goals... the green and white tea is not really getting stuck to. Don't get me wrong, I'm having it pretty often, I'm even enjoying this red tea from starbucks. And I'm convinced my taste buds are changing... I don't like sugar in my tea at all. It's not just I can live with out sugar and milk, it's that I actually enjoy it more with out. Go figure.
On an anoying note... my boyfriend's mom doesn't like me. Yay to that bomb dropped on my head. And it's not just that... it's that most people seem to be betting against the success of our relationship. I love him. That's all that I think should matter. March 7th is our six month... We made it past that honey moon part... we've got amazing comunication, we can actually talk about our issues... and really there arn't meany... so why do people feel the need to have an opinion about what we do, and our relationship. Sigh.
It limits the times and places for intimacy... so... blah... anyways
that's my little rant for the day...
Luv u all
D
I've decided I'm an emotional eater, like so many. Food is a comfort. I know this. Sugar is damn close to a drug. The way you feel when you bite into a chocolate bar.. omg. Hmm
But that does not mean I can't control it. That does not mean I can't recognize my problem, say no and feel pretty good about myself. It comes down to a choice... have a cookie and feel bad for cheating after the momentary satisfaction of said cookie... or don't have a cookie, feel a little deprived, but realize there's a)no such thing as just one cookie and b) that I had the will power to say no. So even though I am... again... going to start on day one, I'm feeling okay about the last few days.
Like I said though, the success of my goals are completely linked to how tired/stressed/busy I am. I did a 8 day stint at work, with one day off, followed by a 6 day stint, with two, and now I'm up for yet another 7 day stint. What's a girl to do. I need to get my water bottles back in the fridge, I need to start on day one all over again. Maybe the water bottles were part of the habit and when I dropped those... I dropped the water. Don't get me wrong, I've stuck to my diet; lean proteins and veggies. Since I'm trying this 4 hour body thing I even had a cheat day. (Still no chocolate on said cheat day). So I'm pretty okay with how my diet is going. I'm just... I don't know... a little frustrated that I haven't really been sticking to my other goals... the green and white tea is not really getting stuck to. Don't get me wrong, I'm having it pretty often, I'm even enjoying this red tea from starbucks. And I'm convinced my taste buds are changing... I don't like sugar in my tea at all. It's not just I can live with out sugar and milk, it's that I actually enjoy it more with out. Go figure.
On an anoying note... my boyfriend's mom doesn't like me. Yay to that bomb dropped on my head. And it's not just that... it's that most people seem to be betting against the success of our relationship. I love him. That's all that I think should matter. March 7th is our six month... We made it past that honey moon part... we've got amazing comunication, we can actually talk about our issues... and really there arn't meany... so why do people feel the need to have an opinion about what we do, and our relationship. Sigh.
It limits the times and places for intimacy... so... blah... anyways
that's my little rant for the day...
Luv u all
D
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